This statement may mean many things to many people. But to me it is simple, I believe Jesus is my Lord and Savior. Though that’s an easy statement to say don’t have any misconception. Being a Christian isn’t easy. The world is consistently pushing us to believe that what is popular is right, what is fun is good and that through our own hard work we can get anything. Of course, not all things that are popular are bad, just like not all things that are fun are necessarily good. And I do believe that hard work pays off, but it is never through us alone. Fighting against everything we hear and see is a daily job for a Christian.
If we’ve followed my blog previously to this post, you’ll see that I’ve never mentioned God, or being a Christian. I’ve only recently updated my page, mission, and other tabs to announce that I am. But I’ve been a Christian all of my adult life. But I was lukewarm at best. I am embarrassed to admit that, and I’m sick of sharing only half of myself.
Now to be clear, I never hide being a Christian on this site because I was ashamed of being a follower. The reality is that I believed my failures and my imperfection in some way would have others somehow turn away from God. And that by being secretive about my faith would give me room to make mistakes and not be accountable. But what a foolish thing to think. We are always accountable to God. Even when others don’t know our suggests or life choices, He does. Instead of hiding my imperfections and failures I could have used my experiences as testimony. And I believe that is what He is calling me to do.
I don’t promise that I will always have the positive patient person I should be, but the difference now is that I will try harder and be accountable. I won’t let my fears and insecurities keep me from sharing His Word and love. The earthly me can be selfish and short tempered, but God never gives up on me. He teaches me every single day, and all of my experiences (no matter how big or small) are shaping me to be the person He has called me to be.
I want my kids to look back one day and see a mom they can be proud of. Even though I’ve never a morning person, and am bit of a control freak, who suggests with anxiety attacks. I want them to see a woman who never doubted God. I know I may fail Him, but He will never fail me.
My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever. Psalm 73:26
So today is the start of a new day. I love my life as a wife and mother and though things aren’t always easy my life is that much sweeter because I have God in it. I am a Christian!
